YOCO [TYB]

I seriously hate my fucking life right now.

The one year I meet girls that have a particular interest in me or 
we consider talking to each other and rainbows and all that shit
someone (mostly one of my friends/acquaintances) teases me for it
and the situation is where that girl teases me.. Like EVERYDAY.
Fo’ example:

Chillin’ in my good friend’s art exhibition-it’s like a bad ass post-
apoc nature preserve in our old financial aid office with natural pine
scent! Anyway-my friend, someone who I had previously met in acting
and I were chilling in this completely wood hut with pillows and everything
just talking and getting to know each other and whatever.
My friend and I get all cuddly and stuff because that’s just how I am; so we just
talk about past relationships and who we are currently interested
in/want to date/talking to/forbidden romance/etc. and my friend (yes, I’m not
gonna say her name) tells us about her past-now, this woman is 22 years old
and is quite gorg-but extremely innocent. OMG you just wanna hug her!
xD But, she tells us that she’s only kissed ONE person in her entire life
only one time-and it was her first kiss too. lf;akjfn;dkfn;
All of a sudden:
“OH SKETCH YOU SHOULD KISS HER BLAHBLAHBLAAAAH”
…… Why does she look at me after that’s constantly been said?
Like… she would want to? :|
GAWD. WOMEN. I mean, I used to want this girl like a long long loooong time
ago, but it’s on my mind. STILL. This has been too much in the manner
of teasing and the people I hang around sometimes make it worse. 

What do?
;o;
 

(Source: sketchumms)


That feel sucks.
But it happens EVERY TIME I talk about a nice girl or one of my friends decides to hang out with me.
FUCKING “OH. Is that yer girlfriend now? How come I’ve never heard of her til’ nao?”


GTFOH 

ampthetv replied to your post: NEVER AGAIN
I know that feel…

NEVER AGAIN

I will vow to never fall asleep with Tumblr open; especially with a friend’s blog open

If you’re wondering: my mom ONCE AGAIN was skulking out my room and in search of shit she didn’t need. =n=
… IT’S FUCKING 3AM GET OUT klmaf;dklnf;dsf

Anyway, I was on my darling’s blog and it had her picture. LOL. I get woken up by my room light; Mom’s there. D:<
To set teh tonee~~ Mom looks at my laptop and asked the most awkward question of my LIFE

“OH. IS THAT TEH GIRL YOU LIKE?”

o///////////////////////////////////////o
UHHHHHH…. MOM. That’s who I’ve been telling you about for the last 10 months and NOW .. GAWH! ><;;
I want to crawl in a hole and just live out the rest of my days as a blind mole hiding from the world.
Y U FUCKING SWIPER AND THEN TRY TO GET AWAY WITH TAKING MOAR THAN YOU NEED?  

(Source: sketchumms)


Speaking from the Heart:

… I definitely don’t know what it is about you.. 

You’re on my mind every other minute and just uttering your name brings a smile to my face. I really wish you were here with me… Just so I could keep you close-knit to my heart; so I can hear your heart beating … So you can make me feel whole again. 

I haven’t forgotten at all-well, I at least haven’t forgotten what you mean to me, but I still want to know what I mean to you. Hopefully something good. You know.. I know you’ve told me that I impress you. But secret is: I feel like it’s not enough. I have to keep on so you’ll never forget me. I hope it works. <3

(Source: sketchumms)


I’m lackluster and out of passion… 
Everyday, I’ve wished and uttered your name from my lips a thousand times.
To be this lonely, I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone in the world..

Some say I’ve given up; I just say that I have no new outlook on life and love anymore.

They come to me for advice and how to handle situations in relationships-why just me?
I yearn, I hope, I pray-to hold you in my arms if only for once and to never let go if you stay with me. 

Forever wanting to be yours has been a fable, but even myths can be proved to be true.

I hope(d) to love you.

(Source: sketchumms)


My feet hurt, my emotions are scrambled, I’ve been holding myself captive to a television and I haven’t eaten in the last 12 hours.

Well, nothing besides junk food that I have in my fridge.. 

I don’t ask for much, I just want someone to talk to or to start up a conversation with me-so I don’t awkwardly start it.. 

I’m a very friendly person and I absolutely LOVE talking to each and every one of you when I have the chance.. But sometimes.. 
I’m ALWAYS fearful that I’ll annoy you or I’ll do something that’ll make you dislike me..
I guess that’s my problem-I’m looking for approval and companionship of others.

I’m in so much pain right now, thanks to Shark Week; but other than that, … I just want to smile. For real..

Is that too much to ask? 


Why? … Why now of all times? … 
why am I crying? …
Why do I feel so … disgusting?
….

It’s happening all over again with no explanation and no remorse..
I can’t … I just can’t keep feeling like this..

…. Is it because I’m in constant comparison?
Do I really live up to being happy?
No. I don’t.. I’m not as happy as I look.
Everyday is a constant struggle to even want to wake up..

Why me? …